Conviction

I think I've figured out why people believe in a higher power.. sometimes its rather too tempting to throw up your hands and leave it to fate and god.. to fall down on your knees helpless and cry out for divine intervention and a miracle - the shameless capitulation, the meek surrender in the face of adversity.. Most people turn more devout the day they realise that all life is futile and all actions inconsequential to the universe. I know.. I've been tempted. No matter how hard life hits at me, however hard i fall, I will still believe in myself and what I stand for. I will not fall into the illusion of a higher calling and grand plan written out for me. I have none. If I do something good it's because I wanted to do it. If i make a mistake, I'm responsible for it. I have the strength to live with that conviction.